Oh, Son, I can feel your heartbeat when I'm lying in my bed, too many memories going around in my head. I can see you in my dreams, holding me, protecting me, "Don't you talk to her like that. Leave her the hell alone." You would text me every day, "I love you, Momma, it's going to be alright."MY BELOVED SON WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO? MY PRECIOUS SON WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME ALL ALONE? When you think life is calm, a storm comes to wipe away your hopes and dreams. My son, Rudy Andalon passed away on March 14, 2017. He was the love of my life; I carried for 9 months-280 days, 40 weeks, and raised him to be an amazing young man. There is no love greater than the love a mother has for her child. As I write this, tears roll down my cheek, tears of joy and sorrow. I miss him so much. I've written this book to help me and others who lost a child get through the aching pain burning inside, and to let you know you are not alone. This book is a memoir, inspirational, and a self-help guide. I've searched for answers to why God took my son, and there were none to be found; why good people die young, and the mean ones live on. All I know is Rudy's in a place where there's no pain, just happiness-an angel up in Heaven. He leaves behind a mother, father, sister, and two nieces. I will always be brokenhearted, and will always love and adore my son. God bless him.